Ghost of Xmas Past

by Michael W. Stowell

January 1, 2002

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Die for the cause or watch the world die for lack of it
On a heap of human carcasses
In Nature's graveyard

As if you and I, like gurus and buddhas and christs
Might somehow convince humanity
Might somehow light a light
Then die

And where, oh where, has my childhood gone
My hopes and dreams and loves of life
Buried in the boneyard of cares and despair

When I was five years old I pulled down Santa's beard and pissed off the whole family and shocked mirthless my siblings. Thereafter, I delighted in the discovery and exploration of secret, unopened, finely wrapped gifts treasured away in the cold, dark corners of our family attic. I became an adept sneak, a bastard poltergeist; the ghost of Xmas past and the prophet of Xmas morning.

The Easter bunny was cooked on arrival.

From those first steps on this journey through the depths of humanity's selfish cavern, the synchronicity of cosmos gathered dreams of this moment; dreams that poets call love and spirit calls home. Full circle, this child of fifty has found his voice again, albeit deeper and gruffer and angrier than ever.

5,000,000 people are starving and freezing in and about Afghanistan. Puke your Xmas pudding.


       Michael W. Stowell is chairperson of both the City of Arcata, Humboldt County, CA, Nuclear Weapons Free Zone Commission and the Board of Directors of the Friends of the Arcata Library. He is the producer/editor/videographer of numerous public access television programs; he is a naturalist, a gardener, a bicyclist and a Swans' columnist.

[Ed. Note: The City of Arcata, incorporated in 1858, is located in Humboldt County, on California's Redwood Coast, at the juncture of California Highway 101 and 299 West. The city is approximately 289 miles north of San Francisco, 150 miles west of Redding and 760 miles north of Los Angeles. The 1990 census reported Arcata's population as 15,197 and the county population as 119,118.]


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